Dear Reader,As birthdays have passed for me, I don't usually feel a bit different until one day (yesterday to be exact), a few years down the road, I've felt as if I've done some significant growing. Ever feel that way? Yesterday, I realized that I am twenty-six. I turned this age like 4 months ago, but didn't really feel different until yesterday. Even after having to check the second box on most applications for grown up things, I still didn't feel very different. Now, I actually feel like some things have made me closer to who I want to be, but that I know that I still have more room for growth. I hope that this is exactly where I am suppose to be, because the only other option is: lost. Things are starting to become full circle and I like it. I have loved being a student, but am ready to be the teacher. Does that mean I have to stop learning? No, but I will have room to do and learn more about things that I have more meaningful feelings for. I don't know if this seems relevant to anyone, but if so, please share. Mind you, its not like I had some earth shattering news fall into my lap, or made a significant life choice yesterday; I just realized that I am getting older (though, I look as if I am in High School), despite that, I am still growing. Oh, and that it is okay.
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I still feel like I'm 18. Sometimes I don't feel old enough to be a wife, mom, college grad, etc, but then I realize the numbers are against me. Some girls in my ward were just talking about this...how whenever you meet someone new in the ward, you automatically assume that you're younger, but all of these years you've been getting older and you're not in the "newlywed" category anymore. Also, I remember at "Meet The Teacher" it hit me that I was going to be responsible for these kids' learning for the next year, and all of a sudden I felt the pressure. This birthday I was a little bummed that I'm not in my "early" 20s. I'm not depressed about getting older, but it is a strange feeling to think that my 10year H.S. reunion isn't too far away and pretty soon I'm gonna have a 3 year old.
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